Tuesday, October 2, 2007

vent

Lord!!!

Ahh...help me. I'm freaking out. noj's gf is so pretty, SKINNY. but she has so many of the same interests that I do. Like an intimate relationship with you and deep thinking and poetry. Lord Jesus. Why didn't I measure up to him? Why does he like this girl so much. Lord jesus, i feel SO incredibly fat right now. I ate the ENTIRE container of hummus last night and I feel like a cow. I can nver measrure up. Why do no guys like me? I'm feeling lonely and not validated. Lord thank you that I am your creation and there is no one like me. You have surely made me unique. Thank you that you have everything under control. Lord I feel like chowing down on some comfort food like icecream but I know that it would make me feel worse. She's 5 8 which is taller than me! ahh Jesus why